Recently was not so good days for me. have been spending time at home and did nothing much. feel that i am wasting my life away. have to blame myself for quitting my job so soon. tot i can spend more time with my frenz before army but realise that all of them are starting school or have started school. haiz.. bored at home. bored to death.
I love the I Heart Revolution album. its so nice and can really sense the presence of God in those songs. really wanna learn those songs through my guitar but realise that my guitar's sound really cannot make it. sounds so awful. i wanna change guitar!!!! i promise that once i have money i will invest in a good guitar!! arh!!! last time i was bored, at least i have guitar to accompany me. now there is no guitar!!!! but its ok, no matter how much i complain, the situation will not be better.
Anyway, today was really a miracle. i woke up at 6plus to accompany my mum for breakfast and after that, i prayed for an hour from 730-830am in my room in such an early hour! i was very tired but i thank God that i tarried thru! i wanna do it tml morning again! i really wish to discipline myself more in prayer but more than that i wanna enter into delight in prayer. really wanna go to jurong west church and pray at least once this week. its either tml or fri. but i believe most prob will be going on fri. really wanna find more meaningful things to do during this period. i really really really really cannot stand doing nothing. i wanna keep myself occupied and i know thats the key to keep myself alive in spirit and in my soul. now i wish to faster enter into army. though in the army it may be very challenging but at least its better than now. its a new beginning for me to be more mature in every area of my life. its gonna be a trial for me too i believe but i know that God has already prepared the way out for me to breakthrough and to victory. amen! so i am looking forward for a great future in God. i believe its during NS i will be stronger spiritually but not only that, my calling will be more vividly to me during that period. strongly believe that. so i wanna be excited for it while others dread toward it! yes!!! :)
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